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This isn't cute anymore:

I’m 31, the new 30 and I’m closer to my goal than when I started this blog. Now I’m trying to stay on the path that will get me healthy and on the other side of the clothing store. I’ve had my revenge moments and they felt great. Now I’m ready for more of those great moments, maybe this year I’ll propel down something, who knows. But I’m held back by 40 less things.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Thoughts for the day, T minus 58, 57

So roller skating still isn’t yet for me and that’s a huge part of roller derby. I’m just scared of it and old because I said the following.
1. The music is too loud.
2. Who is this?
3. They’re skating too fast.
So maybe I’ll put some skates on one day, but not right now.

Works been crazy and I’ve let that be the reason I haven’t made it to the gym except for Monday and Tuesday. Am I tired and working until 8pm? Sure but I could have done something even if it just burn 100 calories. I could have also eaten better, but damnit people I not strong against the mini left over Halloween candy. Those poor discarded candy that didn’t make the trick or treat cut, my eating them was a humanitarian effort…yeah, I figured if I was going to bullshit it should be really good.

I start off strong, egg beaters with spinach and mushrooms on a double fiber whole wheat English muffin. Then I’m no the slippery slop that’s greased with stress and a little sleepiness for good measure. I get a cup of coffee, with splenda and some creamer, flavored creamer, 1, 2 or 3.

I think something that didn’t help was not blogging or not reading my blogs. I started catching up on my favorites and I feel like I’ve missed out on my best friends lives and there was also a twinge, a pang of jealousy at the progress my ladies have been making with me. I also wanted to be back in that club. Funny that’s the thing I missed most, my blog group.

I need to recommit to this, to me and make new goals. It’s almost a month to my birthday and I will not be able to lose 25 pounds by then, so. What shall my new goal be? What it is every month Pinky, to be 219 or less. *sigh*

But I don’t want to ignore the progress I’ve made thus far. For one thing I’m a size 14/16, I’ve maybe once gotten down to a 16/18. And holy rusted metal ground, Batman! I run now!

I’m tired and will probably reread this post and edit/delete it. So good night all


  1. I can relate to this as I LOOONG to be a Derby Gurl (myriad reasons including Id love for my girl to be in their derby brat league for SELF ESTEEM) but I caint master the skating.

    at all.


    who can say.


  2. At least you tried the skating. I wish you all the best and I hope that this weekend you can get some of those workouts in.

  3. I'm laughing my ass off right now. The last time I tried to roller skate, I took my then 8 year old son to a birthday party. OMG. It was awful. I was all, "I used to love to skate." and "I was a really good skater." OK that was like TWENTY something years ago, dumbass. I couldn't stand up, even on the carpet. Then I barely made it around the rink once. The music WAS loud. I ended up trying to hold my son up and keep myself up. Seriously, I couldn't walk for like a week. NEVER. Again. I'm too old is right.

  4. Thanks ladies, it's nice to know I'm not alone. Being on those skates made my shins hurt. I'm guessing I'm not going to be much of a skier either lol