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This isn't cute anymore:

I’m 31, the new 30 and I’m closer to my goal than when I started this blog. Now I’m trying to stay on the path that will get me healthy and on the other side of the clothing store. I’ve had my revenge moments and they felt great. Now I’m ready for more of those great moments, maybe this year I’ll propel down something, who knows. But I’m held back by 40 less things.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Bringin' up old shit

I read about this in my favorite and my biggest inspiration weight loss blog all in one, but this shit really isn’t cute. I know I’ve already bitch about this, but it’s really bothering me, so we rehash. So you know how you can’t spot reduce, that the weight just comes off where it comes off? Well my boobs have shrunk, so that my lovely tire is larger than my boobs. We all know that the ratio is now wrong. It’s a bit frustrating to have lost weight and then get this misshapen mess in its place, it’s lighter and slightly smaller yes, but oh what a cruel cruel joke you got going on here. You can’t even stop and wallow in it because you have to fix the ratio licitly spilt.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Answer: Hard

Question: How have you fallen off the wagon?

It started Thursday night; I just finished a certificate course and got my certificate. Then me and my classmate partner celebrated with food and drink and merriment. *sigh* Rookie mistake number #1 celebrating with food. Fried, processed yummy food. I know what you’re thinking; I can just start over at the next meal and learn from that mistake. What I recall about Friday is my reunion with Ben and Jerry, dear dear old friends of mine, only smart choice was that I got it in a cup. But on a whole 2 scoops on a Friday – not terrible. Then, we happened upon a fair. Yes a full blown tilt-a-world, Ferris wheel, cotton candy, funnel cake fair. Side note: Fairs are rip offs, it was a dollar a ticket and the crappy rides were 3 tickets. So an hour and half later my fingers are sticky from the blue and pink cotton candy and I’m in line for some funnel cake, 1 for 3 people, I’m not that crazy. Deep fried Twinkies and Oreos do exists and I questioned my order briefly before declaring it mandatory to eat funnel cake at a fair. The rest of the weekend is a blur, there was the cinnamon bagel at Panera because it helps me study and a latte, I’m doubtful I got 2%. And there was no working out this weekend either.

So all this and surely I get back on the wagon on Monday, until dinner time and I apparently lose my mind. Restart on Tuesday, yeah no, got NY style (should be call NY-esque) pizza with gorgonzola cheese on it, I know right? So now it is Wednesday and I may have come to a wind down. I had sushi for lunch and I’m thinking I might have been craving some good fat? I don’t know just trying to find an excuse for my lack of self control, but I have purchased some gummy omega 3 vitamins just in case that’s what happened. So I have about 200 if I want to stay close to 1200 and 500 if I got by my allotted amount of calories left for the day and it’s 3pm. I should be fine – it’s a C25k day so that should get me about 300 burned calories.

I have been keeping up with the C25K, I’m on week 3 and wow, running for 3 minutes is a bitch. I had to slow down, I was up to speed 5.0 at the end of week 2, but I had to slow my speed down to make it. I also have to revisit my playlist and get more pumping music. I’m just having an internal struggle with food and being able to get to the gym as much as before , but school is a good reason I think and Pre-calc requires time and effort, just one more week and I should have some time freed up. Unless I take another class in its place which is something I can see me doing – maybe I should take a break to enjoy the rest of the summer before the fall semester starts.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

The Good the Bad and the Ugly

The Good: The pants I am currently wearing were so tight 2 years ago during my last diet (I’m not dieting I’m eating right and making lifestyle changes – and I can say that three times fast) that I couldn’t wear underwear with them because of the dreaded VPL. Now, they are a little baggy. The Bad: I wear molded cup bras because I get cold and point without using my hands and because of their size they don’t always point in the same direction, well, there is room in my molded cups

The Bad: So my clothes were still damp and I tried I really did try – 100 calories in I really couldn’t take it and I was stressing about the homework I still have yet to complete, so for the summer semester at least Tuesdays will no longer be two a days but rest days. That’s what I got out of yesterday. Besides its nice to take my time with the machines on the weekend. The Good: I burned 100 calories and I have a new schedule that will help me succeed not fail.

The Good: I planned to eat my Kashi frozen entrĂ©e. The Bad: I ate the oven baked steak my sister made. The Ugly: What I did with that sleeve of Thin Mints (yeah, we still have Girl Scout cookies). I think it was in reaction to the scale at the gym I am no longer in the 23x’s, but it wasn’t my weigh in day so it doesn’t count and I have time to right the wrong of the holiday weekend and Tuesday’s Lunchcapade with the Baja Fresh items.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010


So I didn’t fuck it up. I am 239.5 according to the fancy gym’s scale (this gym is more spa like with more services offered and had an open house) and I feel after this holiday weekend, it is right. I’ve been squeezing in workouts after class since the summer session started. I failed to realize the time constraint, what a dumbass.

One thing that’s happened that is not cool, my boob to stomach ratio. My tire, I fear out pokes my boobs, which was always something I liked about my body. And it’s lower – I’m freaking out a bit out the loose skin that may very well occur with my weight loss. I’ve come to terms that with my stretch marks I’m not going to be rocking a bikini ever and I’m alright with that.
On the bright side I went through my old summer clothes and it was like shopping. Some tops that were tight that I saved anyway in hopes of fitting them FIT! And some are even a little baggy. I’m wearing my “army dress” which became unflattering last year, but it now fits and it baggy! Whoo fucking hoo to that. It’s bitter sweet, my favorite maxi dress looks like a hot sack o mess on me now, don’t know how it ever looked right, but I will be passing that on to my cousin who got my black denim pencil skirt.

Other changes I’ve made, I’ve just started C25K. Like yesterday, just started. I’ve always secretly wanted to be a runner so why not. I spent some time on Friday getting acquainted with my gym’s treadmill and ended up running for a minute just to see if I could do it and I could. I was a little unsure about the actually C25K training, but I did it and boy did I sweat and boy was I proud when it was over. I increased my run speed from 3.9 to 4.5. Silly, but I was just afraid to run. I still don’t like the jiggling from the running, but hopefully that will be gone soon. Until then, maybe I’ll get some tight running pants to go under my pants, as it is a wear three bras to workout – I have a system! Don’t judge me.

Today is suppose to be a rest day, but I ate a taquito and a churro from the lunch meeting my job had… and I do have homework to do… what to do what to do? Day 1 over again and then go do homework and study? Or do the elliptical and then do homework? Or let the decision rest on weather my gym clothes (don’t judge) are dry.