I’m still in my funk and I’m trying to shake it and get back to who I was a year ago. A year ago I felt stronger and did more. Maybe it is being in school and it has gotten more involved, Statistics and Applied calculus aren’t classes that just come naturally to me or are very easy, but I have to get them done. I have to stop seeing them as excuses but things that take up time and energy. I have 2 more weeks which means I have finals and projects to contend with and then a summer break. Or I can take my three remaining classes and I can graduate FINALLY with the world’s longest 2 year degree.
Now for the exercising, I no longer live in the gym, I miss it. I don’t know the staff there are a bunch of new faces. That use to be my home, but not anymore. I don’t know what my body can do anymore. I can’t remember the last time I pushed myself or screamed out in pain from sweat dripping in my eyes. I’m currently commiserating with my good friend Lila over email. She can’t fit her pants and I’m eating something I shouldn’t while wanting something else just as bad.