Day 1 of Detox, So far so good

I’m so very ready for today to be over. On the food front I am proud that I only broke the detox when I put a bit of dressing on my salad. I had yogurt and tea for breakfast and for lunch I had a huge salad from a salad bar, so it was pricey. I use to get spinach, but I needed something with a higher crunch and water factor. Then I just started loading up on veggies, grape tomatoes, shredded carrots, shredded radish, peas (Peas? Surprisingly good) chickpeas and jalapenos. And a table spoon of dressing, it was creamy Caesar, I know that wasn’t the best choice, but it’s what I had. I got a lot of food so I thought I would be munching on it all day, not so much. About 20 minutes later it was gone and I was missing it. I followed up with a banana and had an afternoon snack of grapes. The convenient thing about this detox is that I don’t have to weigh the fruits or veggies, although I am tempted to. I’ve also had more water than I’ve had in a while

My hopeful self want to go to the gym after work and have brown rice with veggies, maybe beans for dinner. I feel like I’m making a wish and squeezing my eyes tight so that it comes true “Pretty please I wish I make it to the gym so I can get back on track so I can lose more weight and then fit into cuter flirtier dresses soon because it’s getting warm out and those cute dresses don’t come in plus size, even though they should…with no calorie sweetener on top”

I’m not going to lie that kind of worked. But I keep having moments of just wanting to go home and doing nothing, well, getting in my bed and veging out, turning off my brain because it was not ready for today and I overworked it somehow. Now I’m going to picture myself at the gym getting my cardio on and then going to yoga, but that would be me eating too late…maybe no yoga. I need to hold that in my head, me on the machine working it out feeling great, like the first time I ran after not being allowed to for months! When you don’t want to go to the gym is when you should go. Maybe I’ll look at some dresses to get my butt in gear.

That didn’t really work. I just saw dresses a bunch of “just because you’re skinny doesn’t make that right” dresses. Even the models’ waists didn’t start that high. And I’m still against horizontal stripes.

In other news I’m going natural. My hair has been relaxed since I was in grade school, but last year I noticed a bald spot (that still hasn’t fully grown back in) and decided that chemicals would not be the best idea. So I just never got a touch up. I think the last time was for my friend’s wedding in October. I have quite a bit of new growth and a new problem. Strands and strand are just coming out in my comb. I have no other bald spots and I remember a lot of “breakage” whenever I let a long time between touch ups pass. But I think I’m just not going to, at least not this year. I’m going to transition for a while (continue to let my hair grown out) before I do the big cut. I’ve been rocking an updo with a headband and I’ve gotten a lot of compliments, which puts me at ease. But spring is upon us and I think I’m going to get braids to let my hair grow and to have another hair style.

Last Post’s Comments:

Yeah Ms H, I’m glad to have a job and to like the people I work with, it just all became to be a little too much. Sometimes I forget what seems logical and rational are not always how things are done because it’s my logic, not theirs. And I will go running with her, the weather seems to be taking a spring like turn, finally!