But I have been struggling through my workouts. It’s like the spark is gone, but I know I still want it. I feel like I’m fighting my body and mind on this sometimes. How do you deal with these emotional lulls? I’m going to start with a 10pm bedtime this evening.
I think my disappointments of not fitting into that goal dress for next week and missing 2 consecutive month end weight loss goals have gotten me down. Perhaps this is my plateau and my mind just wasn’t in the game. I gained some weight and am at 230.5 and it bothers me I can’t get in the 22X and stay there. If only life didn’t get in the way I think I would have been fine, but long weekends happen, parties happen and it’s all in how you deal with them.
I feel like I’ve lost sight of my goals, but I know what they are. I’ve done a great job thus far. My pile of clothes that are too big is steadily growing. I’m wearing my clothes from the last time I went down this road and they are baggy, so I know I’ve come further this time and the right way.
I will make smaller goals to keep myself motivated. I will wear the first goal dress at the next wedding and save the purple dress for my birthday, for which I hope to be in onesville meaning that dress should bloody well fit!.
Goal #1 is to be in the 22X by July 31, I will weigh myself on Saturday, which means a Saturday workout – it can be done! I think I can lose .6 pounds by then.