It seems to be going around

There has been a theme with the weight loss blogs I read on a regular basis and myself. We all seem to have caught this bug of BLAH! Maybe it’s the change in the season that’s affecting us or something else, but we all seem to have it and have synched up. I have come to realize that I have been trying to eat my emotions instead of dealing with them. I feel I’m being forced into a situation that has me anxious, sad and really agitated. Like my chest hurts just thinking about having to go to this event because of this one person. And then it was the way it was handled that really pissed me off, that day I discovered the healing powers of whiskey. So I know I’m going to be the bigger person (oh the pun is totally intended). And there have been a couple of small things relating to it that just made me, well, it made me eat chips and dip and sit on my ass. Why that was my reaction I have no idea, I guess I was more hurt by it than I realized, but that’s what I did and I can only recognized, accept and move on. I’ve aired my grievances and concerns and at this point that bell can’t be unrung.

The moving on part is hard, I see moving on as moving period. I do miss my guys at LA Boxing and the crazy stuff they make me do, but I really don’t want to, I want to get under the covers and let the new fall lineup take over. I’m sorry to my new followers, I’m usually much better than this. I even tried new ways to keep it fun, I did those pages, but my hearts not in it and all I can do is say welcome and stick around I’m sure I’m going to wash this funk off. Maybe a good old kick in the pants in the form of a weigh in will do it.

Monday, I’m not in the mood, can we just cuddle?

I had a few posts saved from last week that have gone MIA. Last week was a busy one for me; I had 40 hours by Thursday, but so much more work to do. Needless to say my butt was in my office chair crunching numbers and not at the gym and my eating could have been better. I think I’m going to have to adjust my time for these busy times at work. How do you guys handle these weeks or days at a go where it seems like you’re not on the path you were on and there’s nothing you can do about it?

I wish I could write I had an awesome weekend and went to the gym both days and stuck to a decent calorie intake, but I didn’t and I’m worried that I don’t feel guilty about it. It happened, I did it and I’m moving on and I can start over now, not tomorrow. I’m confident in my dinner, chicken breast with a vegetable, but I’m struggling with motivation to go work out. There’s a body pump class at 6, but I would prefer a LA boxing class, but those are happening too late for me, 7:45! I want to be in bed by then. I told you I was tired. And my race, Step away from cancer is this Saturday and I feel like I’m fooling around here

Just say no to nuts 9/14 recap

So yesterday was going well, I was on track, until I journaled my food and got to snacks, it was almost more than my breakfast and lunch put together. Clearly it‘s the nuts. I just have to say no. No salty nuts I will not put you in my mouth (I couldn’t resist). But that’s not the worst of it. “Dinner” I can’t even explain what came over me. But I ate like my parents left me home for the first time and dinner was up to me. Sour cream and onion dip (the sour cream is actually fat free Greek yogurt) and chips, then orange and vanilla sorbet and a small slice of a small pecan pie. I’m pretty sure that’s what they call a binge.

I’ve also been chained to my desk and not getting to the gym this week and I know that’s why I’m kind of not feeling great and sluggish. I need to get this body moving or else I’ll start back sliding. I think I leave my desk the way it is and catch the 6:30 body pump class, it's not cardio but i think they have a gajillion sqauts and lunges in that class.

WW Memories 9/14/10

I found some old weight watchers check in cards from my second also my last stint and I weigh less now that I did then. I wish I had the first batch of weigh ins, but I don’t think I had gained a monstrous amount of weight in between. I honestly don’t remember any of the weights; just the joy of losing and the anguish of gaining or only losing point something. But I’m pretty sure I’m the lightest I’ve been since my 20s, even with that bout of mono freshman year. I feel like maybe I was wrong, maybe I wasn’t meant to be fat, but that I just wore it well and it was easier to keep it than to lose it. I meet up with my cousin over the weekend and she told me I was her new hero that was a special moment. And I’m thinking maybe I’m my hero for just doing it, for taking it seriously and for really wanting it this time. For the ladies who are still doing WW, I hope you know about Dottie.

Catching up 9/9-13/10

9/9 Thursday
My eating was okay and I went to LA Boxing for some Boxing, surprise surprise. It was another one of the fighters that I see doing some crazy super human things like the drills we have do, but with a weight vest and more reps and perfect form. I admire and hate him at the same time, but enjoy his music selection.

9/10 Friday
Eating was okay as well, all in all, it’s getting back on track and I couldn’t be happier about that. It was getting hairy there for a few days. I went to Kickboxing and my first thought when I parked was “Dear God why the hell am I doing this again!?! UGH!?!” But I went in and did my thing. It was a good workout and when it was over I went to my other gym and decided to take the time and run a mile to see if I could do it….and I did!



At a faster pace, so my time was better. I was talking to a trainer that buys Mary Kay from me and she just looked at me with awe and “you are one crazy chick” when I told her I just got back from kickboxing, but wanted to run a mile faster than I did last week. And while I was at it I weighed myself sweet merciful heavens I had another loss, my weight was 222.5. 2.5 pounds to lose to get out of this decade.! No pic, the gym was busy and I was naked.

I also ran that mile because I was going out to dinner with my best friend and while she does workout as well, we don’t order salads, but we do split an entrée and get two appetizers and a bottle of wine…it was Friday.

9/11 Saturday

What a day. I woke up early and reflected and remembered.

I had every intention of going to my morning class and running, but a good friend of mine that I haven’t seen in a while had a better plan, early morning yard sale and then we workout and then get ourselves some desperately needed new bras. We ended up walking around Eastern Market and buying fresh veggies and fruit. This inspired me for next week’s meals.

I planned to have egg whites on whole wheat English muffins for breakfast instead of the Kashi cereal I enjoy, cuts down on the carbs. Then I was going to be boring for lunch and dinner with chicken breast and veggies. My snacks would be the delicious peaches and plums I got from the market.

9/12 Sunday
I was so very much going to go to the 10:30 boxing class, but I woke up too early and then fell asleep and missed the class. It was a lovely raining morning and I believe that’s nature’s way of telling me to relax and take it easy. And I did, until the sun came out and then I realized there was so much to do. Blah! We went grocery shopping and I got my veggies and chicken breast.

9/13 Monday



As you can see, I didn’t get the entire workout plan in that I wanted to and my eating was good, except for that middle bit, which set me over my limits. I thought it wasn’t that bad until I figured out the calories and sweet lord, never again. The calories were more than half of what I want to eat in a day. Let me explain (read: let me tell you my excuse) I forgot about an offsite meeting and I lost my will power for sushi and mini desserts, but I got back on track and then derailed again, but for the most part, I was focused. I wanted to get to the gym after work, but I was just done and wanted to go home. When I got home I felt guilty about not doing anything so I took my niece on the long evening walk she’s wanted to take for a while so there was a walk with terrible decisions, but I did do 50 regular crunches and 50 side ab thingies and day 1 of the push up app. I just want to be able to do them not on my knees.

9/8/10 – I’m in amazement and hiding

I weighed myself and I have lost nothing and I have gained NOTHING! I’m not questioning it, but I am hiding out in case that weight is trying to sneak up on me this week.

This morning I packed my gym bag for 2 workouts, go me! I realized I left my breakfast at home and decided to be a little late and stop by the super market to get Kashi GoLean crunch cereal. I think they increased the serving size from ¾ cup to a full cup. I don’t remember there being that much cereal. Anyway, I had the serving size and I was good. I wasn’t hungry for a snack so there was no snack, just jitters about going back to LA Boxing after being lazy for over a week, also I was going to weigh myself to see what damaged I had done. Then I realized, I did not pack my sneakers. Now that fat girl in me who wanted to get pizza for lunch and sit somewhere was doing a happy dance because she thought that meant no boxing. Boy was she pissed when I decided that only meant no mile run after the boxing class, I’ve taken these classes barefoot and if we run I have socks.

There was a new instructor and he was good, he took time to instruct me on my technique, very helpful, very large biceps that one, now that I think about it, like big, but not to huge just enough to make a blogger swoon at the memory of them, not even considering mocking his tribal tattoo…yeah so boxing was good, I worked up a good sweat. Not going to lie, I miss Mikey and his crazy third world ninja training drills he makes us do. Bicep man made us do the duck walk, bunny hop, crab crawl and some other bad bad things and 120 sit ups.

Lunch is a Kashi Lemongrass coconut chicken with hot sause. And iced green tea, from my morning tea (not the delicioso café con la lechera, but this is what it takes) that I didn’t drink. Then I stumbled upon the tray of baklava. I refuse to learn how to make baklava because I will make it and eat it and not one of those small pieces you get either, I would cut big pieces and eat them with tea. I’d keep going but it gets a little R rated. So I quirkily looked up the info on the baklava and a site had these from Jason’s deli, but I don’t know how much these weigh. So I’m not sure….so I’m not going to eat it, but I will eat 2 cups of grapes, a banana and a cup oh lettuce with 2 olives. I would just like to say I got a bottle of fat free ranch dressing and sweet lord that stuff is terrible and what is that consistency? No really, why is it like that? Ugh. I ate my lettuce dry. But I do have a baklava in baggie, if the size is right it will be my dessert. If all goes well, I will have chicken breast and maybe some fresh corn on the cob and broccoli.

Wish my luck that I even feel like cooking that and that Verizon has fixed my internet.

8/30 – 9/7 Explanation

Actually all I have for that week are excuses that I think are reasons to not do what I know I should do. My eating was to put it nicely “Holy Fuck woman!?! Why is that in your mouth?” I was super busy at work and super lazy about my life. I’ve clearly been hiding from the truth which is why there are no entries for last week.

I got a notebook labeled it the plan and wrote up a game plan with activities I could/should do (I need to nail those down a little better) and my food intake (I need to do a better job of that as well). I wanted to reinstate 100 crunches a day and ad in the 100 pushups app I have on my phone and then I wrote down the classes my gyms offer each day and tried to plan out my meals. Doing that in bed at 11 was not a great idea because that lucky notebook is still in my bed while I am regretting the crispy curly fries I had for lunch while wishing they had old bay seasoning on them. Grrr. I need to do better and try harder; I didn’t even try to pretend to pack my gym bag. Sigh. I need to break this cycle and fast; I don’t want this to become my norm. I’m done improving myself.

Inhale Exhale, it will be okay. Dinner is another meal to get on the right path and tomorrow is another day to get it right. I will post pictures of my notebook page and figure out a grade for myself based on the items so we can share in the craziness. Perhaps that will motivate me to get all A’s. I did have one accomplishment today, I did not start off my morning with making coffee and sweetened condensed milk instead of breakfast.

On a random feel good note. I think I got hit on…at the pool….in my bathing suit….by a life guard….he was really really fit….I was in my BATHING SUIT!